August 1, 2014
In for a penny…

In for a pound. My online dating accounts have long since been disabled but today I deleted the apps from my phone.

No relationship is perfect all the time. It is also a learning process. SF and I are reaching a cross roads and we are going to talk about what direction we are going in over dinner tonight. 

As my girlfriend told me today, sometimes relationships need a little hiccup just to remind each person that being together is a choice not an obligation. I choose him.

August 1, 2014

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July 31, 2014
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Good Vibes HERE

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Good Vibes HERE

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July 31, 2014
"Intimacy is not who you let touch your genitalia. Intimacy is who you text at 3am about your dreams and fears. Intimacy is giving someone your attention, when ten other people are asking for it. Intimacy is the person always in the back of your mind, no matter how distracted you are."

— (via highrapunzel)

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July 31, 2014
I can’t leave well enough alone…

Well here I go sabotaging my relationship with SF again. We haven’t technically had the “we are exclusive” conversation which drives me crazy. He hates labels but I need one at this point. I told him as much in a very lengthy email that of course he did not “see coming”. He said we can “talk later” if I wanted too.

I am also feeling insecure because he didn’t make plans with me this weekend. I feel like I am waiting around and not making plans with frineds in the hopes that I get to spend the weekend with him. THAT IS BULLSHIT and no way a relationship should be. I asked him if he wanted to go paddle boarding on Monday for this weekend. The paddle board place recommends, if you want more than one board, to make a reservation early in the week to make sure there is availability. I told him this and his response was, on Monday,  “we can figure out something this weekend”.

I have been frustrated since then and it bubbled over today when he has yet to make weekend plans with me which is why I ended up sending him and email stating that I needed a “time out”. I feel awful. 

July 24, 2014
Communication….

SF calls me every morning to see how my night went and if I slept ok, I suffer from insomnia. It is stress induced so if I can’t sleep something is up and he knows it. He calls to make sure I am headed out the door for work early so I can get off early. We chat about what the day will bring and after work plans, am I working out, meeting friends for dinner, are we meeting? 

Is it too much? For some perhaps, but for me it’s not. It’s these things that make me love him. I want to hear from him as much as he seemingly wants to call. It feels nice being wanted and someone’s priority.

I plan my morning so that I am out the door to get his call so I am not in the middle of something, just walking and chatting. He keeps me company chatting while I wait for the bus, typically about 7-10 minutes so not long, just enough to hear each others voices. Its what my mom use to do to keep me company when I would walk home from work.

July 24, 2014

imthuyvu said: I just wanted to let you know that your blog is so interesting! I love it! :-) Hope you and SF work out ;-) x

Aww ^_^ thank you!

so far so good… 

July 22, 2014
quotelounge:

Good Vibes HERE

Exactly

quotelounge:

Good Vibes HERE

Exactly

July 22, 2014
Blind date…

The blind date “setter upper” is in bold, random friend interjection in italics, “blind dater” responses are just plain:

  • So does he have a cane, dark gasses & everything?
  • He’s not a pimp
  • Ha, well you said he was a business owner…
  • I got set up on a blind date with a blind girl once. She didn’t care what i wore or how my hair was.
  • He does handle bitches quite often…
  • You know since he owns a dog boarding business, lol!

Randomness of daily communication…

July 22, 2014
"If you get set up on a blind date should you even bother doing your hair & make-up? I mean they are blind right?"

— A friend

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